Of Human Bondage

OK, here it is, my dirty little secret. My ideal woman would be dominant in nature most of the time. I love the idea of being controlled and serving a woman. To me, there is nothing that compares with the feeling of being bound and helpless and under the control of a woman. There are actually pictures of me in bondage on the internet. Good Luck finding them.

It all started with B. I had lost a bet to her, and the terms was the loser would do whatever the winner wanted for the weekend. Little did I know what it would involve. I was thinking picking where we went to dinner, what movie we would see, etc. Needless to say I was more than a little shocked when I walked into her place and she said "Strip" harshly. She had some toys, and improvised with things such as clothespins. Little did I know that weekend would open my eyes to a world I've since found I won't be happy without. Since then i have played with a few different partners. While I am a switch, I prefer the submissive role.

I have many memories indelibly marked in my consciousness. One of them involves L. This dates back to my college days. When we met for the first time, we walked around and kissed like we were old lovers. We were going to go back her house, which was about 30 minutes away. When we got into the car, she told me to start masturbating. I was like right here, in the car in broad daylight. She gave me a look that told me yes, so as she was driving, I was stroking myself. Every once in a while, she would give me a hand, and smile at me with her big brown eyes. As I was about to climax, I let her know and asked what I should do. She told me to cum, but I would have to clean up after myself. At this point she starts stroking me harder and it feels great. I cum and she catches most of it on her hand. She then brings it up to my lips and tells me to lick her clean. I hesitated briefly and then started to slowly lick her hand clean. As I was licking my cum from her hand, I was so turned on by this humiliation, I can't explain it. I don't think I've ever felt quite like that again.

L and I would play with nipple clamps, candle wax, ice cubes, so whips, bondage, sensory deprivation. One time I went over in the morning and she had me strip down and go to her room. She then tied me to the bed and blindfolded me. She nibbled on my nipples a little bit (they are sooooo sensitive) and left me there until she came back for her lunch break. I won't bore you with all the details of every encounter here, but you get the idea. I have had a violet wand used on me. I've suffered through orgasm denial. I've been forced to perform oral sex on women. I've had them basically fuck my face while tied down and reaching out with my tongue to pleasure them. I've been whipped, flogged and caned.

One thing that I have always been curious about but have never acted upon is what it feels like to have something inside you. I've never had a bi-sexual experience. I don't know that I could go through with it. I think the best thing for me to try would be to find a woman who was willing to go easy with me and work up through several plugs and eventually a strap-on. From there, who knows.

Again, I'm not sure about this.